Theme From an Imaginary Film: A JOURNEY.

to have such big belief in something and then it crashes. and then you dont care anymore. and then you're free. you've been released.

I am so unbelievable pissed at all of them!

Hello blog. Nice to see you again. :p (teasing)

wow...what fight did i just lose?

*a weird sense of sadness*

HAHA! I got it! =)

I'm good.

I'm getting bored at work. I think I need to find something else to do otherwise this whole exercise will just make me or others do drastic things. I'm so tired of hoping for something better and just wishing that things got better, more exciting, bla bla bla. I have to make it happen. Like now, I'm planning and thinking for a trip that'd be next year, about 7 months from now. That's too long. Why can't i Just jump into a plane, car, train and set off? cos... I've lost it. I've lost everything I used to be able to do easily. =( And i have no one to take that adventure with me. So sad. Sarah used to say she wished she could join my adventures. Now I ask, WHAT ADVENTURES? Nothing's happening. My life's a bore. =(( That's it.

There's nothing that seriously seriously excites me. I can't write, I can't make poetry, I can't draw, I'm not in the mood to cook/invent... wala. Nasan na?

So I'm kinda self learning Esperanto, and like so many I've tried to do on my own - Russian and HTML - I'm stuck cos at a certain stage, things get a bit complicated, and you get tamad, and so there. I wanna learn this so at least there's something in this big big world that I've learned (to do) on my own.

I loved the running today! I need more of this. I need to be really, really tired. I need to be exhausted. Physically. It's just better.

Might have made a mistake of digging into the past.
But I'm kinda happy... that he still exists. If you know what I mean.